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Sunday, December 18, 2005

DAY 18 / DEC 16

DAY 18 / DEC 16

            Today was supposed to be the big day, the day the company came in, the day we could begin to start thinking about getting some work done.   And, it was all for naught.  We waited patiently at the hanger, waiting for helicopters to come in (and some did come in), we set up our little booth, had our keys all laid out nice and neat so it would be very efficient to just have them sign for a key and then walk the short 200 meters to their new living domiciles.   No one came to us.  Our company is apparently not a priority and so, they are still at LSA Anaconda, waiting for helicopters to take them here.

            Today, we finally got to move into the actual CHU where we will be staying for the next year during our all expenses paid vacation to an Arabian desert.  We moved in and examined them, and tried to make the best with what we had.  I managed to get in my CHU a bed and mattress, a small table, a refrigerator, a coffee set (pot, beans, filters, sugar, etc), a small three drawer dresser (plastic), and a soccer ball.   Now, a soccer ball may not seem like much, but because they don't  have them in the PX, I think it was nice to get.   The reason that some of this stuff is here is because the people moving out either don't want it, don't need it, or don't have the room to take it back and so, they leave it for the next guy – which is very nice, if you ask me.   Some people left stereos, lamps, magazines, a hoofa, electrical cords, heaters, brooms, chairs, homemade desks, and other great stuff.  I fully intend on leaving anything I think will be handy to the people that move in after me.

An interesting thing about the furniture and how it relates to a conversation that me and my compatriots had earlier today:   We were discussing how whenever our unit goes somewhere, we plaster the area with our symbol – which is a nice symbol, I think.  When it went into palaces across Iraq it put the symbol everywhere, on the walls, on the floors, made giant wooden ones for the plazas, actually paid someone to etch it into the marble, even.  So, our unit has a tendency to go crazy with their insignia.   Someone noted that even after we leave a FOB or palace, there is no way to completely get rid of all the symbols we put, because we put up so many.  Now, the interesting part:  in one of the CHUs we got the keys to, there were premade shelves and beds and cabinets that had been left by the previous occupant.   We checked these shelves, to make sure there weren't any bad things left behind and what did we discover?  Lo and behold, the cabinet was made from scrap wood from a DFAC sign that had none other than our unit insignia on it.   I was shocked because I don't think our unit was ever on this FOB very long, but apparently they were here long enough to leave at least one mark that still exists here.

My neighbor and co-worker happened to end up with a CHU that already had an existing ORBITZ satellite dish and decoder and we was able to buy out the other Soldiers contract for $200.   I don't consider myself much of a TV watcher, but once he got it hooked up and rolling and there was actually TV on the TV, not just AFN, but about 30 channels of news, movies, shows, and music videos.   The music videos seem to be the best thing on, and it's hard to describe how music can make you feel so much closer to home – especially when you haven't had it in a couple weeks.   I was quite envious of his good fortune and schemed ways to take it from him… no, not really, but I was envious and determined to find a way to mooch off the system (with his permission of course).   I noted that the received had a COAX "out" on it and thought it would be easy to get a long piece of coax and run it from his receiver, across the roof and over to my CHU without too much difficulty.   I determined to make it work tomorrow.  We had flights to see in.

We waited until the last bird arrived at 0200, and when it didn't have our people on it, we went back to the CHUs, having accomplished really nothing for the day, but being fully prepared for tomorrow, when we should get our people in.   We were told that the birds began coming in at 0930, so around 0300 I went to bed and slept.  I discovered that I needed to get a lamp so that I wouldn't have to go all the way to the door of the CHU to turn off the light.  Once I turn off the light in the CHU, it gets to be pitch black, there is no ambient light from outside, or anywhere else.   With a desk lamp, I could have just reached up and clicked it off.  A lamp is in my near future. 

Thursday, December 15, 2005

DAY 17 / DEC 15

DAY 17 / DEC 15

 

Another one of those days, except I can say that at least SOMETHING changed.  We moved into a temp CHU (just for tonight) so that another unit could move into the transient tent we were in.  It isn�t a big change; I still can�t unpack or plan anything, but at least its one step closer to getting where I�m going.  Tomorrow should be the day we actually move to our assigned CHUs and then its just a matter of time before the rest of the company arrives.

This morning, I tried my first coffee from the �Green Beans Coffee Shop� on the FOB.  I had a hot white chocolate mocha and I must say that it was actually not bad.  They don�t have anything on Starbucks, but beggars can�t be chosers.  I can�t say that I�ll get one daily (because I won�t � not at $3.50/per), but from time to time, I might stop by from a little pick-me-up.

            The real story of the day is that the Iraqis had their elections, and boy did they.  Personally, I think the elections went better than expected.  There was a high Sunni turnout (who during the last election didn�t vote much and are probably the cause of most of the insurgent activity), higher than expected, and in some areas they actually ran out of ballots!  I think it�s a good sign that the Sunnis, who originally didn�t want any part of the new government are seeing that the only chance they have to get their point across in a democracy is to vote and to participate in the political process.  After all, I once read that, �Politics is war without bloodshed, and war is politics with bloodshed,� or something to that effect.  Maybe the �bad guys� are getting the picture and want to get into the process before the process runs them over.  The fact that the Sunnis voted in mass numbers shows that the end actually could be near � not near enough for us, I�m sure, but maybe near enough that we won�t have to come back, again.

            So, all in all, not a bad day as far as a day deployed away from home in a foreign country where other people might be trying to kill you for no other reason except that you wear a particular set of clothes.  There was a nice sunset that colored the clouds with orange and pink and a cool breeze almost all day that kept the temperature down.  We arrived at a good time, the weather is comparable to home (in the spring or early fall � not the winter), and we should experience the entirety of Iraqi seasons.  Coming in now will help to eliminate some of the acclimatization problems that we would have had coming in the summer.

            Another point that I maybe forgot to make in my initial description of being here is that at night, there is a policy of light discipline � which means that the vehicles moving around at night don�t use their headlights (but use their parking lights only), the doors to everything are always closed to keep the light from escaping, and generally its just dark.  On LSA Anaconda (near Balad), they have lights on all the time, the FOB has 24 hour bus service and flood lights that keep everything lit all the time.  The reason our FOB does dark every night is just in case someone out there is trying to drop something on us, we�ll be harder to hit at night, and the targets will be less identifiable.  There is a good thing to being dark at night; the stars shine brighter here and with such a flat landscape, if you get up high enough (like on a hesco barrier), you can see the entire sky from horizon to horizon.

            So, we moved into our temp CHU for the day � which will be very much like our permanent ones, so here�s a little description:

            A CHU is basically a metal container (like out back at walmart where they hold all their excess stuff).  It has a door in one side, two windows that are blocked up (to prevent any fragments from coming in), a linoleum floor and a row of fluorescent lights across the ceiling.  The walls are all metal, of course.  Our CHUs are wired with 2x 220V outlets, and 8x 110V outlets (110V is what everything is the US runs on; the rest of the world uses 220V).  The windows have flimsy Venetian blinds on them.  Some CHUs have amenities that are being left behind by the outgoing troops � small fridges, homemade entertainment centers, maybe a TV or two that they can�t sell, bed frames and mattresses that were probably supplied by the Army.  Most of the ones without actual bed frames have had some sort of jury rigged 2x4 contraption built to hold a mattress off the ground.  Most Soldiers will be sharing a CHU with two other Soldiers, some with only one and the most important people are allotted their own (only the Commander and 1SG).  Personally, I�m glad that I�ll be sharing, because just being in here now, with one other person, it�s kind of lonely.  It would be hard to imagine what it would be like with no one else coming in, ever.  People are social animals, and although a little peace and quiet �me-time� is necessary from time to time, most people like being around other people.

           

Wednesday, December 14, 2005

Reflecting

REFLECTING -
I’ve been looking over some of the pictures that were taken before I left home so many weeks (2) ago (although it seems like forever), and one of them is a picture of me and my three girls in Colorado. The picture was taken at the Gym before just before I left and I’ve noticed that there are no happy faces on the screen except my three year old. The others know what’s going on at this point and are clearly not happy with it. Their faces show the impending stress of the upcoming year and their eyes reflect the sorrow and loss that I know I feel. My blonde baby girl, however seems blissfully unaware of what’s about to happen. While I look at it and reflect on it, it tears me apart inside and my eyes want to well up with tears that I can’t let go right now. I look at it and see the innocence of youth, the blissful lack of stress on her face, the way her smile brightens up the picture – how in contrasts with the world around it, and I miss that. I miss her running up to me, jumping into my arms, giving me kissing and telling me, “I already gave you kisses, daddy,” when I ask for more and, “Just one more, that’s it,” when I tell her, “just one more.” I miss her putting her hands on my cheeks and turning my head to look at her when she thinks I’m not listening, I miss the softness of them, her smooth, new fingers, eager to explore everything – especially her nose. I miss her running naked through the house, up and down the stairs, pulling me over by the finger to see when Dora comes on the TV, or she needs help with a game on the computer. I miss her spinning the barstool around when she wants me to get up. I miss her “It’s ok, daddy,” when she or I break something. I miss her wanting me to stack blocks, knocking them over when we finish. I miss looking into her eyes and seeing unconditional love, a love that you can’t get from anywhere else except from a child who doesn’t know that you screw things up, that you aren’t perfect, and thinks you are the be all and end all of the world. I miss throwing her up in the air and catching her as she squeals with glee and asks to do it again and again until I can’t lift her, much less throw her. I see all of this, and so much more in the picture. This picture is the epitome of light and dark, hope and despair, joy and pain, and I just hope that when I get back, she still has the same light in her eyes and unending energy and life that she did when I left. I hope she doesn’t grow out of it before I get back.

I miss all of my girls and my boy, I miss my wife and I miss my dog and I miss them all in different but equal ways (except the dog, I miss her a little less than everyone else – but I still miss her). I could go on and on about what I miss about each one, about how my oldest has beautiful hair that feels like silk to the touch, how she’s always eager to do her homework, and gets so frustrated when I tell her what’s wrong so she can fix it, her desire to do her best in whatever she’s doing – from soccer, baseball, school or anything else, she always does her best; how my son rolls his eyes when you tell him to do anything except play the computer or Playstation, how he rides his bike around the block and gets better each time even though he’d rather be playing computer or playstation; how my middlest daughter tries so hard to be like her sister, to the point of annoying her to no end, how she wants to make everyone happy (when she’s in the right mood), and how she loves to draw and color and make pictures and paintings and arts and crafts for anyone and everyone, and how she has little to no inhibitions about talking to people or doing things for people; how my second youngest, the Princess of Pouting bats her doe eyes and pouts her poofy lips when she has to eat something she doesn’t like, or she doesn’t get what she wants, and how her face lights up with everything she DOES get and how her eyes look like they will almost fall out of her head she gets so excited. I miss my children, I miss them greatly, and on one hand, I hope this doesn’t hurt them, but on the other, I hope them miss me as much as I miss them.
I miss my wife, and I could go on for eternity about what I miss about her, how I miss her, every detail about everything she is to me, but it would be an unending entry and would defeat the purpose of an ongoing saga such as this is. I only hope she knows that I miss her more than any words can ever hope to express. I hope she knows I love her, even if I had to come here, had to abandon her to her own devices for the longest year of my life. I know I tell her I do, I tell her everyday, with every chance, but its not nearly enough, I feel her in every breath, in every ray of sun, with every step my mind wanders to her (and maybe I can blame that as the reason I stumble on my way to everywhere I go).
I miss my home, I miss my mountains, the snow capped peaks, the blinking tower on top of the mountain outside my window, the cold, crisp winter air, the rain the comes down like a fire hose and the sun that breaks through the clouds and dries up everything within the hour. I miss the lightning that we used to watch from the porch, or when we’d drive to Sig Hill to get a closer look. I miss the time lapse pictures we’d take to capture the magic on digits so we could oooh and ahh over them later. I miss the booby clouds, the green sky when it gets a little crazy, the way the clouds rolled over the mountain like a dam breaking in slow motion.
Instead of there, I am here, doing my job, and hopefully making a difference, in my own way, to the people here, to the country, maybe my one year here will help to bring them a lifetime of a home without the pain and suffering they have endured so far. Maybe the adults don’t or can’t understand freedom like we do, life like we do, but maybe its not too late for the children to breath the air of freedom, to live in a world without the danger of being killed for a misspoke word. I hope they come around, I hope we help them, because if we succeed, them my year away from my family, my sacrifice, their sacrifice, will be worthwhile. While I have everything, but am away from it, they have nothing, and live with it. I give of myself, I give of my family, so that these people can have just a morsel of the feast that I would be enjoying during any other year.

Day 16 / Dec 14

Day 16 / Dec 14 4% complete

Once again the sun has risen in the east and set in the west as is has done for millennia and will do for a millennia more.
Another groundhog day on FOB Warhorse and we arose from our sleeping bags (on cots) to the cacophony of boots on the plywood floors and someone turning on the overhead fluorescent lights. Again, I awoke to a place I didn’t want to be rather than the home and family I love – but, I know that I am here for a reason and that the reason is noble and good. Corny, yes, but true.
My list of things accomplished today include finalizing the CHU assignments, getting them emailed down to the 1SG and Commander in Kuwait, getting the room name plates printed up, acquiring a RIP (relief in place) timeline so that the BN XO will get off my back, eating breakfast and lunch, and getting some laundry done as well. It sounds like a mouthful, but really only took an hour or two at the most.
We are supposed to move into our CHUs on the 17th-ish and really, that’s the next thing I have to look forward to. Once that is complete, we can start settling in for the next 350 days of the same old thing. After CHU movement, the next big project will be receiving the company as they arrive, getting them settled into their CHUs, and waiting for our equipment to get here. Once it does, the real work will begin and we can start to relieve the unit that is here bit by bit until we are running the comms and they are living in the transition tents.
My intent for the next month is to design and implement a system whereby the platoon leaders and platoon sergeants update a database or spreadsheet on their own which will enable me to monitor what exactly is going on and who needs the focus of my attention.
As I see it, my main areas of emphasis are:
Motorpool
Vehicle maintenance
Generator Maintenance
Mission logistics
Comms
C&E Maintenance
C&E Stock
Mission logistics
Arms Room
Weapon Maintenance
NVD Maintenance
Laser Maintenance
Company OPS
Awards
NCOERs
OERs
Property Book
Carson Equipment
Brought Equipment
i. Vehicles
ii. Generators
iii. Weapons
iv. NVDs
v. Etc.
Local Equipment
i. Vehicles
ii. Generators
iii. Weapons
iv. NVDs
v. Etc.
Supply
Recons
Orders
Stock
Platoons
Fuel status
Vehicle maintenance
i. Services
ii. PMCS
Generator maintenance
i. Services
ii. Oil
iii. PMCS
Signal Maintenance
i. 1523s
ii. COMSEC Devices

Maybe more.

Tuesday, December 13, 2005

DAY 15 / DEC 13

Day 15 / Dec 13

            Another day, much like the last.  Skipped breakfast.  Actually had some work to do today.  Me and my other ADVON personnel went and assigned CHUs according to how the 1SG and Commander sent the list.  So, at least that�s done.

            The day was cloudy all day.  I know that the rainy season is coming soon and just hope it holds off long enough for us to get our equipment here and in place.  We learned today that the company will be delayed for a period of time, so we�re not expecting them when we thought we would and that�s going to delay getting the system into place as soon as it could have been.  The BN is working to get at least our stuff moved up here, but so far we�re not having any luck with that.

            The air here always smells like something has been burned or fired recently, a little bit like firecrackers or gunpowder, but its all the time and it burns the lungs just a bit.  Nothing you don�t get used to, but it is something you notice from time to time.

            The other day I mentioned mortars going off in the vicinity of the city, but after talking to an MP who does daily patrols, I learned that its not incoming mortar fire, but outgoing artillery fire from the Paladins that are somewhere around here.  I don�t really know that they are shooting at anything in particular, but just kind of a show of force to let the bad guys know that we are still here, and can still bring steel rain and fire from the sky whenever we feel like it.

            What else is there to say?  We don�t do a whole lot at any given time here and there isn�t much to do for entertainment.  We shop the Haji-shops, which did have a new movie in today, �Aeon Flux.�  I saw how they bring the DVDs in.  They are in stacks of about 100 or more and the Haji�s here package them in the plastic wrappers and DVD covers.  I�m waiting until some of the other new movies come out, like �King Kong,� and whatever else comes out new that looks good.




"People sleep peacably in their beds at night only because rough men stand ready to do violence on their behalf." -Orson Wells

Monday, December 12, 2005

Speaking of Freedom

Speaking of freedom:
The Iraqi elections are coming up soon and although we are sheltered here on this FOB, you can tell by the way people are talking in and around the area that this could be a time of escalated violence by the insurgents. Last night, we had some mortars land somewhere within earshot, but not close enough to take any protective measures for. Now, I heard rumor that down in Kuwait that there was some sort of insurgent attack that was thwarted on the camp we were at. I have been unable to confirm that anything at all happened down there, and no news agencies I have seen or read have any information about it.
I read earlier that our government is hoping that a good showing at this election will help to quell insurgent activities. That sounds great, but I can’t see how it will work. The insurgents are not going to accept any government that doesn’t give them the power they think they can achieve by forcing the US to surrender the country through violence. Even if everyone in Iraq votes unanimously for one person or group of people to lead the country, the insurgents will say that the US manipulated the votes and that it is not a legitimate government.
As I see it, there are only two ways the US can leave Iraq in decent shape:
1. We can build the military, police and security forces to a level where they can contain the insurgency as we have and continue to mount operations against major cells when they begin to consolidate. This course of action will take some time and doesn’t really change the fact that the insurgents are out there, but it does mean that someone else (the Iraqis) will be policing their own backyard and maintain their country from the inside. I see this as the most probable course of action.
2. The Iraqi Government can bring the insurgent leader into the political process and through him bring the insurgency under control. This will never happen unless he is willing to open a line of communication to the Iraqi government that he probably thinks is a US puppet government – and so it will be hard to make that happen. This course of action would be best as it would mean a lessening of the violence in Iraq through a political means and will bring the insurgents to the table as a political entity and not a militant entity.

DAY 14 / DEC 12

DAY 14 DEC 12
So, two weeks have come and gone and it only feels like just a month or two. Time travels slowly when there isn’t much to do and you’re far from home in the middle of a desert wasteland that has been the object of so much negative attention and violence that even the local populace doesn’t have any sense of self respect or respect for their community.
My day has run the normal course: breakfast, lunch, visit the CP, visit the S6, reshop the same stuff at the Haji-mart and PX (as it turns out, there isn’t anything new on any given day, and the old stuff I passed over yesterday isn’t any shinier or more appealing. Try as I might I can’t find anything that I really feel I need or should purchase at this time.) So, now that my day is caught up…time for a few insights on the local scene.
We share this post with not only the Iraqis who work here but also with a unit from the Georgian Army. They are wearing our old DCU type uniforms and kevlars and are carrying AK type weapons. I would like to get to know some of them better, just to broaden my scope of understanding of the world and its peoples, but they seem very closed to outside people. I really know nothing about them except what I’ve already written. I’ll try to learn more over the next months, but I make no guarantees that I can get anywhere with them.
Haji-mart – A place where local nationals sell goods that they have acquired from somewhere. The typical goods at a Haji-mart are mediocre video-camera-in-the-movie-theater copies of movies still in the theaters; decent copies of DVDs that have been released; blankets made in Japan or somewhere else; coffe pots, tea sets made of glass or stone that are actually quite nice, but made in Pakistan or India; various electronics from both name brand and non-name brand companies; and stuff that Soldiers leaving the FOB have sold to them rather than try to take it home. I’ve looked high and low for something actually made in Iraq or even by an Iraqi, but I can’t seem to find any thus far.
This morning, at breakfast, the DFAC was relatively full and I couldn’t find a nice wide open space that was not near anymore and so I sat down in any old place and began eating. As it turns out, I had sat down across from a Haji who worked with the Army as an interpreter. When he came and saw me sitting there, he seemed uncomfortable and although he did sit down for a second, he left soon after. I was actually hoping he might sit for a second because I figured that if he was an interpreter he 1. Knew English and 2. Might have some idea what’s going on outside in the real Iraq. But, he left to go eat with his Iraqi buddies. I wonder if he left because he wanted to eat with them, or because he didn’t want to eat with me, or maybe he thought that if he were to be seen eating with me someone might think badly of him. I’ll never know, but these people aren’t making it any easier to adjust my preconceived notions. Regardless of my prejudices, I think they deserve the chance at freedom and that we are doing the right thing in helping bring it to them.
During lunch, we ate in the DFAC (go figure) and of course, there are many Hajis eating there too. It seems that they have gotten some clothes from somewhere that have certain things written on them and they have no idea what they mean. Today, there was a Haji, well dressed (as Hajis go) and relatively clean, wearing a green sweatshirt that simply said “Snowboard” across the front. I couldn’t help to chuckle because I’m pretty sure that this Haji had never seen snow, much less a snowboard or mountain. I wanted to ask him if he knew what his shirt said, but I didn’t want to offend him or make him think I was ridiculing his intelligence.
The unit that we are replacing is glad to see us and is very willing to help us do whatever we need to do to get into place. Its kind of interesting to hear them talking in the line to chow or at the PX; they talk about going home, about what they are going to do, and how long they’ve been here. I asked one how long they had been here and he told me that they had been here only 11 months, so I guess we can actually look forward to being replaced sometime in November of 2006 if everything runs along the same course. I never mentioned why it was interesting about them talking about going home. It’s because it seems so far away, so distant for me, for us. I feel genuine joy for them and also jealousy that they will see their families soon. Their happiness and restlessness to get home is both an upper and a downer. I know that someday (in about a year), that will be me, but for now, I have another year to get ready to go home.
I thought I might watch a movie for the first time today and discovered that in my hurry to get things done before I left, I failed to load Windows Media Player 10 on my computer and so my CODECs aren’t up-to-date enough to watch the DVDs I bought (to send home). So, when I get back to the internet, I’ll be downloading WM10 and hopefully that will fix the problem. Just in case it doesn’t, I’ll also download a simple DVD player and that will fix the problem.
The clouds rolled in, or floated in or really they just kind of appeared. I keep hearing about the rainy season which should be coming up sometime in January, and I hope its not as bad as it sounds. It appears that any rain or moisture on this dust will pretty much turn it into a nice pasty mud.
Speaking of the dirt – Didn’t this once used to be the “cradle of life,” or “cradle of civilization,” or something like that? So, shouldn’t the ground still be capable of that same vitality that supposedly was the Garden of Eden? And now, I’m thinking that maybe the Garden of Eden is being used by us even as we speak. How’s that, you ask? Well, my understanding of how oil gets into the earth is that biological material (ie, dead plants, bugs, trees, etc) decompose into the soil and some of it eventually gets down deep enough and with enough heat and pressure turns into crude oil. If I’m wrong, correct me. But, if I’m at least somewhat right, then all of the past biological material (Garden of Eden) has decomposed into the ground here and all around here and turned into oil. Now, we are pumping this oil out and refining it and using it in our homes and vehicles and all those things. So, in effect, we are using the ancient Garden of Eden to drive to and from work everyday. That’s nice. I have no objections to that.

As I post this, I hear multiple mortar rounds landing somewhere in the city. I can feel the shock wave (just barely) so I know that they are far enough away not to worry about. So far I've heard about 3 or 4. Not long after the mortars go off the helicopters are hovering around the area. They may not have been mortars, they could have been a VBIED or something of the such. Anyhow, another day, another shelling.

Sunday, December 11, 2005

DAY 13 / DEC 11

DAY 13 DEC 11

FOB Warhorse

Woke up around 0800 today and dug through all my bags to find my other uniform and towel and took a shower. It felt good, the water was hot and because I took it quick, I had plenty. The showers are all out of trailers with about 6-8 stalls in each one with sinks for tooth brushing and shaving. Each stall has a small curtain. The shower trailers are cleaned once a day by Hajis who work for KBR (Kellog, Brown and Root).

After a shower, we went to the NETOPs and talked to them about the network and what we would have available, what they were leaving behind, etc. I managed to finally pay my bills on line, email some family and call home. Many more are waiting, I�m sure. I also managed to email the commander and let him know the situation here and what we were dealing with as far as the network and housing was concerned. The 1SG here was supposed to send the housing diagram down to them yesterday, so I asked if they had finished it and if they had to send it up, because my BN XO was breathing down my neck for it.

Whoops, one thing before NETOPs and after the shower. I took a load of laundry to the laundry shop. They have a quick turn around and told me I would have my clothes back after 1600. The laundry system works like this: You put your clothes in your laundry bag and carry them down to the laundry building, wait in line and then put your clothes in a little basket where you show the Haji behind the counter what you are wanting washed � a maximum of 20 items per bag (a pair of socks is one item). He then checks off the appropriate boxes on a little check sheet and you sign that its accurate and he gives you a copy and off you go. We have to turn our ACUs inside out, I guess because it protects the Velcro and zippers better.

We went by Brigade to talk to the S6 section and on the way ran into a Captain Chaplain who asked us if our Chaplain was there yet. When we told him �no� and that he would be coming later, he asked if we knew what �flavor� he was. I had no idea what he was getting at and I�m sure the stupid look on my face gave that away. When he asked again and started rattling off denominations of Christian religions, I told him the best I could that I thought he was Protestant. And very unlike all the Chaplains I�ve ever known he responded somewhat snidely, �Well, thanks, that narrows about down to about 200 subdivisions.� Well, gee, sorry if I don�t know what itty bitty piece of religion our chaplain subscribes to. He went on to explain that he had some books and stuff for Soldiers and wanted to find out whether our Chaplain wanted it based on his denomination. I don�t really care, but it seems to me that it doesn�t matter what denomination the Chaplain is, what really matters is what denomination each Soldier is, and in that case he should leave all of the stuff he has, regardless of what denomination its for. And, in retrospect, that Chaplain is lucky that I narrowed it down to protestant for him, I should have just told him that our Chaplain was Christian.

The rest of the morning was spent waiting for lunch. Not a lot to do once we�ve contacted all of our counterparts here, so we went to the Cash Gym (which I call the Cash Bar � its only a small gym with a few weightlifting things) where we got some free drinks and took out the pool balls to play a round or two before lunch. It was here that I had my first actual encounter with a Haji. After I won a round, he asked to play and, being the winner of the last game, I played him. It was close game, with both of us missing many shots that should have been made, and in the end, I lost. No big surprise, I�m not a pool player by any standard. But, I must say that the encounter did not really change my preconceived notion of the Haji. I still feel that most are somewhat shifty. I realize that this feeling is more or less completely unfounded, but its still what I feel. I hope that how I feel about Haji does not affect how I treat them.

Lunch was as expected, a little of this, a little of that, nothing new and exciting, but not bad. I grabbed an ice cream on the way out as a treat for all the hard work I�d done this morning.

After lunch, we checked to see if we had gotten a response from the commander, but had nothing.

We checked out the PX again, but nothing had changed since yesterday and off we went to kill some more time.

I spent a good deal of time trying to figure out what dreams I had for my CHU. I hate the dismal atmosphere of the area and am intent on brightening it up, even if its just a little. So far, I�ve planned to put a porch on the front, with an enclosed deck. The open areas (windows) will be covered with a bug net and the roof will be plywood and will be somewhat openable. It will rotate on hinges about 45 degrees with long wooden poles to hold it up and hopefully catch some sort of breeze in the summer without letting in the blazing sun. I�ll put some sort of door matt out front to keep the majority of the dirt out of the CHU. I hate how the HESCO barriers look and would like to do something to make them more eye appealing, more home-like. I was first thinking that I could put up wood planks to make it look like a fence, but nixed that idea because I think Haji might steal the wood (not very trusting am I?).

- A Side Note �

Haji: As far as I know this is not a derogatory term, although somehow I feel like I might be using it in a derogatory way. My understanding of the word is somewhat who has made the Hajj to Mecca at some point in their life. I might be wrong. But, it has become a relatively universal term for any Arabic type person.

- End of Side Note �

Back to my grandiose CHU improvement ideas. Instead of the wood planks, I thought about plastic picket fences (like you can buy in the gardening section of wal-mart), but then I thought those might be too tacky. So, now I�m mulling over the possibility of stucco for the hescos with a little flower garden or shrubbery on top. It think it would be do-able and not too difficult. The issue would be getting the stucco material here � and paint if I decided that I needed that. The stucco would look decent, and not be worth stealing.

I would also like to put up a ladder to roof and maybe put a floor on top of the CHU so that I could have a little deck up there. I think that that might be against the rules, but it would be nice. If I could have a deck, it would be more like a sunshade with Astroturf-like carpet and bug netting all around.

Maybe I should call Extreme CHU Makeover and see what they can do.

The personal satellite stuff is stuff off-limits according to the BDE Commander, so all these people who have them here and want to sell them are somewhat SOL. We can�t buy them and they have no reason to take them home � so it looks like they might be stuck with a $4000 satellite internet system. Maybe they will leave them behind and eventually our command will let us turn them on.

We had dinner and then went back to company area to check on the email from the commander. He finally responded but did not have the room assignments and apparently didn�t get them from the 1SG here at all. I�ll have to go in tomorrow and talk to this 1SG to see what the deal is.

I�ve began to take two drinks in the DFAC at all meals. One to drink with my meal and one to take with me for later to stay hydrated. Because they have the bottled Gatorade in their, it makes it easy to take one back to the cot and sip on it throughout the day.

Tonight, I�ll sleep again on a cot with a sleeping bag and fall asleep to Depeche Mode on the MP3 player. The more I listen to the songs, the more I relate to each one in some way or another. I usually don�t make it through the first song before I fall asleep, but I�m sure that the rest of the MP3s provide for some interesting dreams.

I�ll try to remember and write them down once I have writing material more readily available.

About once a day we hear what sound like explosions nearby, but they aren�t. We just had some that hit somewhere far enough way that we couldn�t see the explosions, but we could feel the shock wave. Back home, the artillery range is many miles from our house, but sometimes we can feel the shock from those and they rattle our windows in their frames. So, I�m not worried about these that we can only hear and sound like they are far far away.

Saturday, December 10, 2005

DAY 12 / DEC 10

DAY 12 DEC 10
This morning, we woke up too late for breakfast – probably around 0900 and my first stop was the phone to call home. I knew my wife would be worried and I didn’t want to keep her waiting any longer than necessary. I found the ATT phone center and using my newly purchased card, called home. She was relieved and hearing her voice is like a cold bottle of water after a hard work-out. Simply refreshing.
Having missed breakfast, we wandered around the camp, looking for what there was and getting a general feel for it.
FOB Warhorse is not what I expected. To be honest, it is less than I had hoped for and I had done my research. The FOB is very drab. The roads are all gravel of different sizes ranging from pebble to softball size. The sand is fine, like moondust and is everywhere. Hesco barriers are around everything and make the whole place look like a construction site. The CHUs (Containerized Housing Units) are also less than expected, but shouldn’t have been. They are about 15 feet long and 8 feet wide and hold 2-3 people. The look like miniature trailers with hesco barriers or sandbags coming halfway up the sides. Everything is still flat and dull colored – there is no brightness is color anywhere. The phone center and MWR building have concrete barriers around them. There is a small PX – about the size of a gas station store, and has about the same selection. It is run by Hajis, who don’t have great standards for cleanliness. There is also a Haji-mart (or a Iraqi National Store) area where Hajis sell stuff – mostly DVDs and other electronics. The DVD variety is relatively wide and they even have movies that aren’t out on DVD yet – like Goblet of Fire, Chicken Little, and Zathura – which are still in theaters. They also have some movies that are just coming out on DVD, like Dukes of Hazzard.
I picked up three movies – GoF, Chicken Little and Zathura – for $10 for two reasons. One, I can send them home and my kids will love them; two – I wanted to see what kind of quality they were. The quality is roughly what I expected – a bit grainy, but tolerable – especially for the price and for the fact that they aren’t out of the theaters yet. The quality of the new release dvds is equal to a regular dvd – I’m sure its just a DVD rip – but who’s asking?
There are two gyms on the FOB. One is really nice, I think (I haven’t been in it yet), and the other is smaller. The “Cash Gym” (named for someone named Cash I suppose), had drinks, Gatorade, Pepsi, Coke, etc for free – in fact, everything in there is free. It seems like a nice place to hang out.
There is a theater on the FOB that plays movies all day. I haven’t checked it out yet but I will someday soon.
After lunch, we linked up with the BN XO who took us to the BDE TOC for a quick inbrief on the situation and whats going on – the different projects in the city, how we are helping the Iraqis take over, what the enemy is doing and how to counter it. The FOB itself has been relatively inactive as a target – for whatever reason – but there are still IEDs on the roads from time to time.
After the meeting, we met up with the CPT from the company we are replacing here and talked all about what we are going to do, what is staying, what is going, and how we are going to do the Relief in Place –RIP. They weren’t expecting anyone from our unit for another two weeks and so we unprepared to do anything quite yet. They are not moved out of their CHUs to make room for us, but place to be moved out in about a week so that when the main body of our unit gets here, they can slide right in without having to spend time in the transitional tents.
The uniform on the FOB is Kevlar and weapon at all times.
For dinner, we had a huge plate of spaghetti and steak. The food is decent and plentiful and I’ll have to pick up doing PT again if I don’t want to get fat. I plan to do some PT tomorrow if I get around to it.
The weather is nice – 70-80 during the day, and cools off at night to a comfortable sleeping temperature. But, it is December – winter. The summer will be much more painful.

DAY 11 / DEC 9

DAY 11 DEC 9
Woke up at 0600 and looked over the room to the BN XO and saw that he was still racked out, so I rightly guessed that the meeting was either cancelled or not very important. I went back to sleep.
We woke up at 0700 and went to breakfast at the DFAC (took the bus again) and came back in time to be told that there was another meeting at 0900 to tell us that they didn’t know when we were leaving but that we would have another meeting to tell us that information later on.
0900 came around and the meeting went as expected. No new news, just that we would like up again about 1300 for another meeting.
We took off to hang out on the LSA again, with nothing else to do, we wandered around, looking at this and that for the second or third time.
The day drug by and we had lunch and came back to the PPC and waited for the next meeting.
At 1300 we had a meeting and were told that at the 1700 meeting we would definitely know something – maybe.
Often times I wonder whether or not the Iraqi people want us here. Do they understand what we are doing and why we are doing it? I think that some do, but most are just happy to take our high paying (in their opinion) jobs and go on their merry way. I haven’t actually asked, because none that I have run into seem quite intelligent enough to hold on a conversation about politics or anything like that. I’m sure that I’m just not seeing the people for who they are, but only for what my prejudices have told me they are. I will, at some point, try to talk to some, to see if they understand what we are doing, and why its important and whether they really want it or not. I know why I’m here, I just wonder whether they do. Sometimes I feel like its like trying to rescue an injured wolf in a trap that doesn’t understand that you are trying to help and keeps nipping at you, even as you try to free it.
At the 1700 meeting, we learned that we actually DID have some helicopters coming to get us that night and that our bag drop was at 1900. We quickly hopped the bus to the DFAC and ate and came back so we could get our bags out to the pad quick-like. We ended up having our bags on the pad about an hour before 1900, but after that we just hung out there and waited for the busses to come. There was a unit that was to go before us, and so they loaded up on the first busses. We waited until about 2000 for our busses, but they finally came and we finally got on – another step forward to getting to where we were going. All dressed up in IBAS and feeling like turtles we crushed onto the bus and drove around the airfield to our stopping point.
We were dropped off at the helicopter waiting point and were told that our guide had made a small error and that our helicopters would not be coming until two hours after we were told they would. Not surprised, we resigned ourselves to two hours of waiting.
- Another Side Note –
I just wanted to make a quick comment that I should really write to Sony about their new Playstation Portable (PSP), which I bought before coming out here – much to the chagrin of my wife, who of course didn’t seem put out in the least by it. The PSP has been, by far, hands down, the best investment for portable entertainment, ever. I carry mine around in my pocket and it comes in handy for those times when you get an unexpected two hours of nothing to do – and it works in the dark (unlike a book).
-End of Side Note-
So we played PSP for about two hours. We played against each other (me and some other people there smart enough to have one) and it made the time go by quickly and also made us forget the cold for the time we were playing.
Around the time that we were supposed to go, a couple of Chinook helicopters fly under, tossing up dust, but we were grateful that our flight actually came on time. We were grateful that is, until they taxied up to our area and kept on taxiing, right into a hanger or somewhere out of sight.
At some point during our wait, another three busses of people rolled up and offloaded their bags. They apparently had a flight also – and we were concerned that maybe they thought they were getting our flight, and so we almost had to beat them down. But we didn’t, they stayed far enough away that violence never became an issue.
After waiting for about three hours, someone came up and told our coordination guy that the helicopters had been delayed for about an hour and fifteen minutes. But when didn’t know when that hour and fifteen minutes started – right then, or an hour and fifteen minutes ago when they began being late. Once again we began waiting. A couple of Blackhawks fly by, and some Apaches, and even a Chinook or two made promising gestures before moving away. One Chinook even landed, unloaded a bunch of troops and loaded up about 6 journalist type people and took off again.
At some point, a pair of F-16 fighter jets took off. They made a roaring like no other as the raced down the runway with full afterburners blazing in the pitch black. All we could see what a dim outline of a small fighter and a blue blaze of fire out the back like a huge oversized butane lighter. The power was awesome and everyone was impressed. But definitely not worth waiting three hours for.
Finally, our birds arrived and disgorged their passengers. This is about midnight or so. We had to pick up our bags (three each and not light) and carried them the 100 meters of so to the back of the birds and used the chain system to get them loaded. As it turns out, not everyone thought they needed to be in the chain. I found out later that our Brigade S-6 had got on the bird first, with a bag, and sat down in a chain and didn’t move from it – even when everyone else helped load the bags down the center aisle of the helicopter.
As we loaded, I noticed that the prop wash was cold, and the engine exhaust hot but if you found a happy medium you got to be both hot and cold for alternating short periods of time.
Finally, the bags were loaded and all crammed ourselves like sardines along the sides and into cloth, fold-down seats. There was no way to get to the seatbelts, nor any need, we couldn’t move one bit and the bags stacked up to the ceiling and were inches from our faces. When everyone was loaded, the helicopter pulled up and we were off.
Or so we thought. Seconds later the guy next to me tapped me on the shoulder and yelled that the bird was going to land and we were to get off, but not go far. This concerned me, and I began to think of all the things that could be wrong that we were landing so quickly after taking off. I came to the conclusion that we had loaded the bird lopsided and the pilot wanted to reload it so it flew better. I was wrong.
The bird landed and we all piled off and moved off the concrete pad we had landed on. Standing in the cold rotor wash, we watched through the darkness as the crew got out and appeared to fuel up the helicopter. Some people thought they were checking on some problem with the engine, but to me it looked like a simple refueling operation. 10 minutes later, we were allowed to get back into sardine formation and we took off.
This Chinook was outfitted a little bit differently than the one I had ridden on at Fort Lewis. On this one, the rear door didn’t close all the way, but stayed at the perfect angle for the rear crew member to sit at an M-240 machine gun and watch the ground for bad guys. It was different, but not surprising.
I watched as much as I could as the bird lifted into the sky and the lights faded away into darkness. I closed my eyes, just for a second, to rest them – and I couldn’t really see anything anyway. I knew that I would open them soon enough and be able to experience the descent and landing properly. Once again, I was wrong.
Only a few seconds after closing my eyes, I felt a tap on my shoulder and noticed that the people closest to the rear door were already out. Still in a state of semi-sleep and confusion, I got up and walked out the door and stepped onto a gravel surface. We had finally arrived on Warhorse. It was very dark.
We went to work unloading the bags far enough away from the bird. Once the helicopter was unburdened by us and our crap, it popped off the ground like a model rocket and swept into the sky, flying away before we realized it. Well, we DID realize it; it blew small rocks all around and pelted us with them.
We carried the heavy bags to another area and loaded them into a 5-ton truck to move onto the FOB. Once again we chained up and got half the bags onto the truck. About half of our group walked into the FOB to unload the truck while the rest of us waited for it to return and get the rest of the bags. We were all exhausted and tired and our IBAS made our shoulders throb. But no one complained. Everyone was relieved to finally be on the ground at our destination. Most of us would be staying on Warhorse, but a few were going to other places, like Gabe.
After loading up the second truck, we walked onto the FOB and into a heated tent. We snatched up cots and searched through the dark for our bags. Once all the bags were claimed, I had no energy left and rolled out my sleeping bag on a cot and fell asleep.
Before crashing, I noticed that Warhorse seemed to be made mostly of hesco barriers (wire mesh boxes with a cloth lining, filled with dirt or rocks), and a few concrete barriers around the important stuff (like the phone center and MWR center). At night, the FOB looked pretty dismal. I hoped it would look better in the morning.

DAY 10 / DEC 08

DAY 10 DEC 8
We were supposed to fly out today, but this morning we were told we would have no flights until tomorrow at the earliest.
I slept in past breakfast and then we walked to the DFAC (thinking it may still be open for a late breakfast or early lunch), but it was for no luck – the DFAC was closed. We continued walking, thinking we could hit the PX and all that stuff that Soldiers do when they have nothing else to do. After getting lost for about a half hour wandering the concrete maze that is LSA Anaconda, we found our way back and settled for taking the “E” bus everywhere we went.
Eventually I broke down, gave up looking for the free DSN phone that was rumored to exist and bought a 550 minute phone card at the AAFES PX and called home. After a much too short 45 minute talk, we took the bus back to the PPC (which, I have no idea what is stands for, but I can only think of it as the Pikes Peak Community).
SSG Castro and I played a couple rounds of pool and split them. The poor table was old and had been donated by some pool dealership in California. You could tell it was old because the felt was worn through to the wood in more than a couple places and their was a sizable lip on the table in at least on solid line across the table. When SSG Castro went to hit a ball, the cue ball hit the lip and jumped up off the table, striking the wall of the rec center (which was only a 15x30 foot plywood building, much like a garage).
The rec center had one pool table, a small collection of free books (mostly romance and the like), free water, and an assortment of table games like monopoly, cards, and taboo). Three Hajis apparently had duty and one of them was in the building at all times. Another amenity of the PPC was another room like the rec center that just played movies 24/7. I didn’t watch any there, but I did poke my head in once, just to see what it was.
After that, we hung out in the barracks area until dinner and caught the bus there. We shopped around the local Haji shops, and saw that most of their stuff is made in India, Pakistan, or China. The stuff looks nice, but its not true Iraqi stuff, just imported crap from somewhere else to sell as Iraqi stuff to ignorant tourist American Soldiers. So, I check the stuff I get to be sure its genuine Iraqi before I go buy it under that assumption. Sometimes I wonder whether the Iraqi people actually make anything, or just resell what everyone else has. Maybe I should buy some oil – at least I know that is actually from here.
We went to bed that night, thinking there was a 0600 coordination meeting to tell us when we could get the hell out of there. Anaconda is alright, as far as a concrete maze city goes, but I just wanted to get where I was going so I could start my time and stop being so “transient.”

DEC 9 / DEC 7

DAY 9 DEC 7
Yesterday went with no flight and no bus and everything stayed packed until this morning when we rolled up our shit and went to chow. After another menial breakfast, we checked back in at the BDE TOC and discovered that we would not know when we were leaving until the 0900 XO meeting.
After the 0900 XO meeting, I drew ammo (180 rounds per person) for my group and told them that we had to have our bags at BN by 1030 (but it was really 1100). I coordinated with the bus driver, SGT Shaffer, to have the bus available to transport us an our bags there because its quite a long walk and the bags are not light. Then we waited, until about 1000 and I started wondering where the hell SGT Shaffer and the bus was – but I wasn’t worried yet. I was worried at 1030 when there was still no sign of the bus. And I was pissed off when at 1045 there was still no bus and I put on my IBAS and Kevlar and began the first of two walks to BN with large packs on my back. During the first walk, my ankle gave out and I took a headfirst dive into the bag on was carrying on my front. SSG Castro thought this was the funniest damned thing ever – so at least it served some purpose. Eventually, we managed to haul of bags to the right place and because the busses weren’t there yet, we walked over the DFAC for some moderately appetizing lunch. We hurried back, hoping the busses would have arrived, but they had not and would not, they told us, until 1300.
We waited in the SYSCON area until 1300 and were told to wait until 1500. As we waited, I read the day’s edition of the Stars and Stripes and managed to complete the SUDUKO without making any mistakes! But, it was rated at “easy.” I guess I shouldn’t be too thrilled.
At 1500, I went to find out when we were leaving and was told by the S3 that we should be back at BN by 1830. With all that time to kill, we walked back down to the tent to wait. About a half hour later, a SPC from BN came in looking for me – by name, which is very uncommon – and when she found me, she told me that the busses were going to leave without us and that they had already done roll call. I quickly grabbed up my stuff, threw on my boots and me and one of the other Soldiers going with me walked quickly up to BN – my other Soldier was no where to be found. The last we knew he was headed to the PX. Others were sent to look for him.
Once at BN I talked to the S3 who had told me 1830 and at first he denied saying that, but then look crossed his face like a small light going on in his head and he didn’t deny it anymore – he didn’t admit it, but he didn’t deny it either.
After about 20 minutes of stalling and hemming and hawing as much as we could, we had to get on the bus and the bus pulled away without one of my Soldiers. It was really no big deal, except for the fact that he missed movement (even though it wasn’t his fault) and that his bags WERE on the truck, even if he wasn’t. The busses rolled down the main drag of Camp Beuhring and as we were passing the PX, we saw my missing Soldier, walking quickly back towards the BN area. The BN XO debated for a moment whether to stop for him or not – we would have to go back to get his remaining gear (IBAS and Kevlar) – and the BDE S4 decided not. We drove on through the camp and as we weaved through the exits, the first bus stopped. We all guessed what had happened. Another, smaller bus, came by a few minutes later and let my Soldier out so he could join us on our journey to Iraq.
We continued the bus trip (maybe an hour) to an airfield called Area 51 and received a brief about what was going to happen, and when. We were supposed to get onto different busses in 30 minutes to get on the plane. As we waited by some transient (meaning “passing through” as opposed to “homeless”) tents with cots, it started to get cold and even so, we were all tired enough to snooze a little sitting there. After an hour, we decided to move inside and snoozed on the cots there until 2200 when we finally boarded another set of busses and rolled out to the tarmac.
On the tarmac, a C17 cargo plane was waiting and we all loaded up into the tail end of it and grabbed some seats. There were seats along the wall of the plane and also a bunch of airline type rows in middle. I sat on the side and buckled in. I rested my head on my IBAS (as I was wearing it) and put in my earplugs to buffer the noise of the big engines.
- A Side Note – IBAS is body armor, Kevlar pads in a nylon vest, supplemented with ceramic plates to stop higher caliber rounds. Onto this vest, we attach numerous pockets to put stuff in – ammo, compass, GPS, camera, binos, knives, tools, etc – and so it is not only quite heavy, but very encumbersom. Getting on and off of things with tight spaces, such as busses or airplanes is quite difficult and once you do get into a seat, moving is almost impossible. The IBAS becomes like a turtle shell, you can move around INSIDE it somewhat, we much movement of the shell itself it difficult. One good thing about this is that you can relax your body inside the shell and rest your head on the upper lip and regain some semblance of relaxation and comfort. Not much, but some.
- Finish Side Note –
I settled into my shell and napped as the plane roared off into the night, headed North to Balad and LSA Anaconda. When I awoke, we were landing and by the time I was fully awake, we were taxiing around the tarmac. A C17 has no windows for the passengers or cargo, so I couldn’t tell where we were, and it was dark outside, so it probably wouldn’t have mattered anyway. My ears hurt like crazy from the pressure differences and I couldn’t fix it with the nose blowing technique, or the yawning method, or any other way that I could think of. Once the plane finally stopped (and it seemed like we taxied all over the place), they unloaded the actual cargo and then began letting us off. We walked to some more little busses and were driven somewhere else on the base and let off.
Once on the ground, we waited for our bags to arrive and when they did we had to unload them, find ours and put them in a separate pile for shipment to Warhorse ASAP. We were told that there were some flights heading out tonight that we might be able to catch if we hurried. We hurried. We loaded, stacked, sorted and piled as quickly as possible and then reloaded another truck with the Warhorse baggage and hopped on another bus to head to helicopter tarmac. Once we arrived, we were told that the flights had been cancelled and we would have to stay on Anaconda for the night.
Disappointed, we were bussed to a transient area to stay, downloaded our bags – again, separated our bags – again, and were assigned to 20 person rooms (but with actual bunk beds instead of cots. We dragged our bags into the rooms and that is where we are now.
When I went out to eat dinner – a granola bar I brought with me from home – I happened to look up and see the stars for the first time since being out of the US. Oddly enough, the stars look the same. I know its no surprise, but its nice to know that some things don’t change. I first identified Orion’s Belt by the three stars in alignment and then scanned the sky for the Big Dipper, which I also quickly found. From there it was but a short glance to see the North Star, the Compass Star, the one that that truly stays the same. And while I gazed at the North Star, thinking of home, thinking of my wife, who I’m sure is worried because I haven’t called (I can’t right now, its 0430 here and no phones available), but who also may look at that same star tonight and know that we are both looking at the same star. And while I was imagining all these fluffy, happy things, a shooting star shot from the tail of the Big Dipper and I made my wish. I know it’ll come true, because wishes made on shooting stars always do.

DAY 8 / DEC 6

DAY 8 DEC 06
I went to bed early (2300) last night because I was able to call home early. This morning, I woke up at around 0500 and couldn’t go back to sleep for the life of me. I got up and went to the shelter and called my mom and I finally managed to talk to David and Illyana in Washington without any difficulty. They don’t understand why they get an echo of what they are saying and also don’t understand the delay in voice because of the satellite delay. I think it bothers them a little, but I guess they don’t have any choice but to get over it. I feel bad for them because by the time I see them again it will have been over a year and a half since I last saw them. I hope they don’t hold it against me in the future. I just wish they could come stay with us.
Today we are set to fly out of some airport about an hour from Beuhring and fly into Baghdad. We will stay the rest of the day there and then take a helicopter to Warhorse. We were told this morning that we will not be able to take a carry-on bag and so we have to find someplace to stuff the carry-on we brought with us. Because of the extra room freed up by having to wear IBAS and Kevlar, I was able to reload my B bag and stuff my carry-on into it.
I don’t forsee using the internet before we leave and so leaving the names of cities isn’t any big deal.
It’s pretty warm today, maybe in the 80s, and the sun really sucks the energy from you as you walk to the klick or so to the DFAC.
I found out a little more about where we are going. Its about 1.5 klicks long by 1 klick wide and all of the barracks are in the middle. Our area is in one corner and the BDE is in another corner. The DFAC is somewhere in the middle. My job, once we get up there, will be to figure out where we are going to stay and to hopefully get some stuff from the leaving units to help us with out job there. The rest of the company will come sometime in the middle of the month.
Had dinner after a short nap and ran into another Small World incident. I ran into Major Feger, my first company commander, back at Fort Drum. We talked for a few seconds, he’s with the 2nd Brigade and is staying in Kuwait as a reserve force – so the Army can say it only has X number of troops in Iraq and doesn’t disclose the other XXX that are hanging out in Kuwait in case things get hairy.
We went to draw ammo around 2000, but the BUB is still in progress and now they apparently don’t really know when we are going and so don’t want to give us any ammo before the last possible second. So, now we sit, with all of our shit packed up, trying to catch a few ZZZs before they call us at the last second to go.
I have to pack the computer up and so will finish this off here, for now, and more to come after we arrive at Warhorse and begin to get settled in.

DAY 7 / DEC 5

DAY 7 DEC 5
Last night was more or less uneventful. After making my usual midnight phone call, I was still unable to access the internet. However, during my search for an open port, my buddy discovered a valuable treasure lying on the bumper of one of our commo vehicles. It was an Iridium satellite phone, worth a very great amount of cash and undoubtedly missed by someone. I’m sure that it is an Army issued phone and probably has a lot of minutes on it, but until we know who lost it, it’s better to keep it secured.
This morning was more of the same – last minute taskings by battalion to get some paperwork done ASAP. I did, however, manage to make breakfast this morning, a most unusual occurrence for me. After returning to my barracks to get some paperwork done, the 1SG came in and told us that there were some new rules for conduct around the post.
This story actually starts long ago, back during RFI issue about 7 months ago when we were issued some really warm and cozy polar fleece black jackets. They are designed to be an outer garment, but have no place for the US Army or Name patches on the front – or anywhere for that matter – so when you where it, you are completely unidentifiable. When we arrived here at Beuhring, we were told in no uncertain terms that even though the fleece was authorized by the Army, it was not authorized by the Brigade. Which is kind of amusing because the same person who said that had just finished a great oration on the Army Standards and how important they were (unless they conflict with HIS values apparently).
So, now someone has complained that we can’t wear the fleece as an out garment, and won. We can now wear the fleece as an outer garment, but somehow we now cannot do the following:
1. Smoke and Walk
2. Dip tobacco and Walk
3. CHEW GUM and Walk
How these stupid things make it into the same policy allowing everyone to wear a thick fleece jacket in the middle of the fucking desert is beyond me, but hey, I’m sure someone thought it made sense.
The internet that we thought was up last night is now not up, but it could just be a minor configuration issue and everything should be ok – hopefully.
During dinner I had another small world encounter. As I was sitting, eating away at whatever I had grabbed, I looked up and saw a familiar face. This time is was SSG Tamigin who was an instructor at my Eastern ROTC program. He left during my Junior year. We talked for a bit and I told him about the others from our class who were in the area. Small world.
No luck on the internet, but the DSN phones work from the shelters, so we can call home whenever we get the whim.
Phones work great from the shelters and until I leave, it shouldn’t be an issue calling home.

DAY 6 / DEC 4

DAY 6 DEC 4
I woke up at 0800, missed breakfast, which isn’t very good anyway, and went with a Soldier to get an early morning strawberry slushie from the Oriental place in the little strip mall area. About 2 pints of strawberry slushie cost $4.50 – remember what I said earlier about Soliders spending money?
We were supposed to leave for Iraq today, but got delayed for another couple days. It looks like we’re going to fly from here on a plane into Baghdad and take a Blackhawk from there to Washorse. I’ll fill in the blanks later, I just don’t want to increase my odds of getting an RPG shot at me because some Haji read my blog and decided to set me up for a bad ending.
After getting back from the mall (not a mall, just a square bit of desert with little shops and food places around), I was reminded about my 0900 XO meeting, which I was late for. It was no big deal as the XO didn’t have much to put out, but I won’t be late next time.
Now, we just promoted one of our Soldiers (Bolchalk) to SPC from PFC – and it has been a long time coming. He’s been up and down the enlisted ranks for awhile now and its good to see him back on track. I took pictures, so his wife should be happy to see them.
After lunch, I went to BN to take care of some business and also to ask around at BDE where my buddy’s unit was barracked at. They told me and as it turns out its about as far away from where I am as I can get. But, I went over there anyway only to discover that he wasn’t there. I left a message and thought I’d try him again later.
I once again had work to do – twice in the same day – I hope this doesn’t get to be a habit. So, I wrote up a memo to get fuel for the generators and put it on a flash drive to take to BN. Once there, I printed it out and delivered the other info that they needed. Because I was in the general vicinity, I took another walk over to my buddy’s tent to see if he was there, and lo and behold, he was. We chit-chatted about this and that, the up-armored humvees, the radar stuff and so on, and then went to dinner. During our conversation, it came up that he hadn’t called home yet, and that he didn’t want to wait in line. I mentioned to him about coming by the BDE HQ around midnight maybe I could hook him up with a DSN phone. We’ll see if he makes it. The call center has been down for over a week and the three hour lines at the MWR phone are crazy – so I think I’ll see him again tonight.
At dinner, we had some chicken fajitas and other semi-mexican stuff that was tolerable as long as you doused it with hot sauce and salsa.
We had thought he was going to be at a different FOB than I was, but as it turns out, his unit is also going to be on Warhorse. And, once again, most of my unit will also be there – all except for about 6 personnel who will be at Anaconda.
There has been a change to my daily schedule that is now something like this:
0800 – Wake up
0900 – XO meeting at BDE TOC
1200 – Lunch
1300 – Take care of BN stuff
1700 – Dinner
2400 – Use phone at BDE TOC

This schedule is working well for now and I don’t have a three hour wait for the phone.

DAY 5 / DEC 03

DAY 5 DEC 03
Yesterday I missed writing due to being tired and lazy. I can’t say that I DIDN’T have the time, but I didn’t have the time in a convenient manner. I woke up around 0800 and had to do some actual work – I know, it’s uncommon, but it does happen. I was finally able to get into the shower today. I found just the right time and there was no one in there with me, so I took a decent shower, washed my hair and all that and felt good again for a minute. I didn’t change BDUs yet, I want to wait until I get up into Iraq and can get a routine going there.
After that, I went to the DFAC for lunch, had something that I don’t rightly recall now, but it wasn’t bad. They do seem to have an issue keeping the cola stocked, I am finding that I have to drink the orange FANTA instead of my usual Coke or Pepsi.
Earlier I mentioned that I had an IED brief I needed to go to and in order to go to it, I had to get in line immediately after lunch, which I did. We sat outside the building we were told to be at for about an hour and half, on some half filled sandbags. I took a little nap, sitting up against the wall, in a small bit of shade. When I woke up, there was about 100 people standing around waiting to get it. Finally, the Sergeant opened the door and we nearly rushed the door to get in. He stopped the stampede and asked if we were with the Aviation Brigade. Well, we should have said yes and come on in, but I was told that we were to say we were with the BCT, and that’s what I did. Well, my mistake. As it turns out the 3 BCT was supposed to be at the OTHER building, half a klick away. So, the entire group rapidly walked, because running would have looked desperate, and managed to find the other building – just to discover that there was roughly a battalions worth of people standing there already. We moseyed on up to the front, not having a formation to be in and were told that we would have to let the other people in first because they had been waiting for an hour.
As the door opened, the groups filed in single file and as I approached the door, we were stopped by another group going in. It was a time of confusion as people were let in, others were kicked out, and eventually we managed to get inside the air conditioned tent and get seated on the wooden benches (unfinished plywood benches). The first two hours were about current trends in IED placement, types of IEDs, who is setting them, and how best to handle them when you come across one. The second half consisted of a semi-funny Irish Soldier in the British Army who told us about friendly fire, how to recognize friendly vehicles from other countries and after mentioning that 9 out of 10 friendly fire incidents involved US attacking British troops, joked that they had given us our freedom, what else did we want? And to stop trying to kick their asses. It was pretty funny, but I guess you had to their to appreciate the accent involved. The briefing ended just in time as I was beginning to have trouble staying awake and keeping up with the multitude of civilian vehicles that are being used by other armies for moving people around.
Small world. At the briefing, there was a SFC from a Fort Hood Brigade telling everyone in his section to sign in. I turned around to look at him because his voice sounded familiar. As it turns out, we were in the same company together back in the 90’s at Fort Drum. So, back then he outranked me, and now it’s the other way around. We talked for a bit before the briefing started, but its always funny to find someone you knew so long ago that’s now in the same place you are.
After the briefing, I went and signed up for the phone center, thinking that I could get in line early and after dinner, have my name almost up. I then went back to the barracks and was feelings very sleepy and tired. I read a little bit of Stephen King’s, “Colorado Kid,” and subsequently couldn’t stay awake. At about 1600, I set a timer to wake me up in 45 minutes.
When I woke up at 1930, I had missed dinner and my phone time and was a bit disgruntled by that, but because there was nothing I could do about it, I made the best of it. It actually worked out for the best, because I discovered that if I waited until midnight to use the phone, I could go to the Brigade TOC and use the DSN phone there with little to no wait, but I haven’t been able to get on the internet yet – but it’s coming.
Stayed up late reading, couldn’t sleep and eventually got to sleep around 0400.

DAY 4 DEC 02

DAY 4 DEC 02
After calling you last night, I found out after I got back to the barracks that I had to go to the zero range and shoot. I had to be at battalion at 0630. Well, I stayed up for a little bit, doing some reading because I wasn’t really tired, but I knew I needed to sleep soon. I read the first chapter of the Colorado Kid, and its so far so good. I also prepped my gear for the range tomorrow, dug out my IBAS and Kevlar, checked the straps, added magazines to my pouches, checked all the batteries and stuff and filled up my camelback with water.
After searching around for someone with an alarm clock, I crawled into my green sleeping bag and went to sleep. I slept pretty crappy. I was worried about getting up on time to get some breakfast and go to the range at 0630.
I shouldn’t have worried because I woke up at 0230, 0400, 0420, 0445 and by then just waiting until 0500 to get up and get dressed. Hacksaw and I went to breakfast and even though we were there by 0515, the line was about 150 meters long. I was concerned that I wouldn’t have time to eat, but eventually we got in. I had some French toast and some other crap that wasn’t very appetizing, oh, and I had a bowl of Frosted Flakes. So, I hurried through breakfast to make the 0630 time break. I virtually ran back to the barracks (a good 300 meters or more) and threw on my gear. Me and Castro walked quickly to the Battalion TOC and found everyone else standing around. It was at this point I remembered that I hadn’t shaved this morning and I felt a little scruffy. Finally, we were counted and ushered onto a bus around 0645. The bus didn’t move until 0730 for some fucked up reason.
After a short 1 hour drive through the desert, which I slept through, we jumped off the bus and got ready to put some rounds down range. Now, this is the first time I’ve actually seen the Kuwaiti countryside. As it turns out, there is not a lot to see, it is pretty much what you expect out o the desert – flat and pointless. Sand is everywhere, very fine, like moondust with the occasional scrubbrush poking out here or there. Sometimes, on the horizon, you think you can see a building, and maybe you can, but its hard to be sure.
So, we scooted ourselves over to the firing line – pretty much a line where someone said, “let’s start shooting that way” – and stapled targets to silhouttes that were already in place. We laid sandbags down and fired 20 rounds in an attempt to make 5/6 consecutive hit in the black circle. That being done, quicker by some than others, we proceeded back to the busses. Although this doesn’t seem like it would take awhile, we were out in the desert for about 3 hours. The good thing is that the desert wasn’t so bad today. There was a nice breeze blowing through, which doesn’t blow on the base we’re on, and it kept things very comfortable. We reboarded the busses and I regained another hour of sleep.
Once back on the base, we raced over to where the IED training was taking place and snuck in the back door. After the IED training we grabbed some lunch, a surprising feast of ravioli, fries, hot wings, hamburgers, and no Coke or Pepsi – they ran out apparently. I’ll have to get there sooner next time.
After lunch I went back to the barracks and started typing.
My plan for the afternoon goes something like this:
1700 – Go sign up for the 3 hour phone line
1715 – Eat dinner, whatever it may be
1745 – Go to the post office and mail a package
1800 – Sign up for the internet
1830 – Actually get on the internet and send my email and hopefully some pictures

DAY 0-3 NOV 28-31

DAY 0-3 NOV 28-31
We are so far so good. I still don’t have an address for our 1-year layover in Iraq, but we should get it soon. I am currently writing this from our barracks area – one big tent, hot in the day, cold at night, but better than staying outside. We did have a decent sized white kangaroo rat in here last night, so I’m being careful not leave any food stuff around my cot. We’re sleeping on cots with our sleeping bags. I will save this to a thumb drive to load up to you in an email after dinner.

We had to remove the bolts from our weapons so that we couldn’t hi-jack the plane. What sense does that make? We have no ammo, but we have to remove the bolt – do we turn them in to someone? No, we put them in a pocket. We are on the honor system to not bring knives or lighters on the plane (we can trade them for matches). Really, if I’m going to hi-jack a plane with a knife, am I just going to give up my plan because you said no knives on the plane? Needless to say, I still have my knife.
Our flight was uneventful. I don’t know what kind of place it was, but it had 11 seats across (3 on each side and 5 in the middle). It had about 45 or so rows going back. We took off from the Peterson Jet Center and flew for about 4.5 hours to Ganer, Newfoundland. I had a window seat, over the wing, and it was remarkably loud all the time. It was cool inside and they gave everyone a blanket and pillow. The in-flight dinner was a choice of chicken or lasagna, of course I took the lasagna. It was actually good for airline food. The were some in-flight movies, but mostly I played PSP (SOCOM) with the Commander, Ryan, Castro, Travis, Randall, Joe and Chief. It took my mind off the pain I felt inside – if only temporarily (you never get rid of it, just bury it under work or play or something for a bit at a time). There were some in-flight movies, but the sound sucked and I didn’t watch them.

After Newfoundland, we took off across the ocean to Ireland and landed in Shannon (wherever the fuck that is). For that in-flight meal I had a choice of chicken parmesan of beef stroganoff – chicken for me. It was also decent, but not as good as the lasagna. We stayed there for a little bit, and I was able to use the PSP for email and text messaging. I took a short nap there and then we took off again. This time we landed in Kuwait City (no real meal, just a sandwich that I didn’t eat because I wasn’t hungry and I slept most of the flight) and took a bus to Camp Guehring (or Uidari) – it was about an hour and a half ride. Curiously enough, the windows were covered, I guess under the childhood premise that if we can’t see them, they can’t see us. Although I would have thought that the police escort was a dead give-away.

We arrived at the camp and had an inbrief and scanned our cards (before midnight on the 30th, so I get combat pay and tax free for November). During our inbrief we were told that the bad guys had people watching the plane we came in on and knew exactly how many had come in, who we were with, where we were, and where we were going. That is not very comforting, but I suspect that it was mostly just an attempt to get everyone in the mindset of OPSEC. We found our barracks and our bags and then went to midnight dinner. Then I went to find the phone center and the internet. As it turns out, the ATT phone centers are down for about a week and so the whole camp is using the 20 phones there. I waited in line for about 2 hours for 20 minutes of phone time. It was very well worth it – and I would have waited for many more hours for the chance to talk to you, to hear your voice again. Luckily I managed to get online and do the email thing.

It’s funny. They’ve been giving us these huge OPSEC briefs about not taking pictures of anything that could be identifiable and to make sure you watch the background and stuff like that, and so I was careful when taking pics to keep that in mind and I’ve noticed one thing – there are no terrain features that rise above the buildings. I could take a 360 degree panoramic picture from my barracks and see nothing but buildings that look exactly the same all around.

I’ve noticed that NTC at Fort Irwin is a very good simulation of the terrain and ground here. The sand you have in the shotglass there is about the same as it is here. Here, the sand is a little bit finer, but not too much. It looks like in the distance there is a dust cloud hanging over the landscape, but I can’t be sure that that is what it is.

The weather is actually quite nice, with highs in the 70s and 80s – not as hot as NTC, but still pretty warm – especially for winter. At night it gets cold – about 40 or so, but it feels colder because of the temperature differences.

There is a great variety of units and uniforms here; there are civilians in shorts and t-shirts, and there are Special Forces guys in all sorts of different uniforms and English troops and troops from other units. You name it, and someone is wearing it. So far, we haven’t put on the IBAS or Kevlar, but I know that before we go into Iraq, we will.

All of our equipment is here, except we can’t seem to find two of our MILVANS. I’m sure they are here, its just a matter of where. Nevermind, we found them.

I was supposed to go to an IED brief but it was full-up, so I guess I’ll go tomorrow or the next day.

I also found out today that I will be going into Iraq sooner than I told you yesterday. Now, the Single-Ticket Express people (that’s me and the other XOs), will be going up probably on the 4th (so, maybe I’ll have better comms then).

Some of the things I noticed here yesterday:
Water tastes better when you’re thirsty and its not so hard to drink.
People (Soldiers) will buy stuff for no reason if you give them the chance.
Back at the manifest, after we left Garcia and went to the other gym, they had foozball and other games and stuff lined up (probably under the assumption that restless hearts and minds would tend to wander) for Soldiers to do. They also had a mini-PX where they made sure Soldiers with money could spend it. Its not like they had been gone for any period of time, and in fact hadn’t even left yet at all.
Here, the line for getting into the PX in about 100 meters long at any given time and there isn’t really that much to buy inside. I didn’t get any Kuwait souvenirs like I did in Newfoundland and Ireland because I’m pretty sure I’ll be back through here in a year or so.
Last night, from the bus windows, the soft sand looked exactly like snow.
Airplanes are cold.
Barracks smell like ass, but you get used to it.
You don’t feel much during the day when you have to wear gloves all the time – although my silk underwear feels pretty good to the touch =)
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